How It All Started

Ryan and I have been married for five years. We battled infertility for about four and half years. When we were dating we had discussed that one day we would like to adopt a child.  We didn't realize at the time what journey God had in store for us in the future. During the four and half years that we battled infertility, I fought with God and sometimes my husband. I went through times when I felt that I lived in constant heartache.  Life was not fair. About two years into our struggle I began researching adoption.  I did this off and on for a couple of years, but each time I looked I became overwhelmed by the cost and the process. I completed my B.S. in Elementary Education in December of 2010. By that time I had learned that I had no other choice but to sit back and trust God. I was just a passenger on the roller coaster that God was steering. I could protest and worry, but it wouldn't change a thing.  I just became used to the idea that I wasn't going to see where the next turn or drop was going to happen, but it would work out anyway.  A couple of months into my final internship, Ryan and I had decided to look into adoption again. This time it was not out of frustration, but out of a peace and a calling. God was guiding us to adoption at this time for a reason that is all His own. He placed friendships and circumstances in our lives that all pointed to adoption. Though we had no idea where the resources were coming from, we decided to take a leap of faith and begin the process that we knew God was calling us to. After several months of praying and researching agencies, we finally decided on Florida Baptist Children's Home.  This blog details our journey through this scary, stressful, exciting, and ultimately rewarding process.